this is real, this is me.

Buying a new shoe?

Selling BRAND NEW EVERLAST cream coloured shoe,

with black shoe lace.

its Size 6.

Initial price was $49.90.

BUT,

we are only going to sell at $45.

If you are interested,

Please contact Amantha Koh at

devil_of_the_devils@hotmail.com,

or you can leave a tag at my blog,

and we will get back to you very soon. :)

THANKS.

P/S: the shoe was just bought,

so we ensured its brand new.

You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

12:32 AM

Random

when you need a friend, who you wish will be there?

close friend, or normal friend?

when you need a friend, but your friend is busy,

what will you do? how will you feel?

and when your friend is free,

and when you had already found another friend to talk out to,

and when you have no more mood to say it again...

seeing your friend actually dont need you,

seeing actually without you, everthing is still the same.

seeing actually you make no difference.

seeing actually you could no longer hold onto it,

seeing actually you aint strong anymore,

seeing you actually dropped a tear,

and seeing you actually have nothing..

nothing much left to say.

maybe that's the best of me.

maybe i just needed that trust.

maybe...

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12:49 AM

for once, her smile is real.

for once, she felt so blessed.

for once, her smile, is real for the moment.

just at that moment,

everything is real.

blessed.

and,

MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL. =D

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You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

9:29 PM

When

when other people are running, while you are walking.

when other people are ahead of you,
yet you are still lacking behind.

when other people are ahead of you,
and the world left only you.

when the lights on the path you are walking shuts off suddenly.

when you are lying on the bed, thinking of dying.

when you are alone, thinking why is it so.

when you look down the building,
thinking if you just end your life like this,
how many regrets will you have?

when you look up to the sky,
and what you see are the gloomy dark clouds.

when you needed help,
but yet people just ignored and reject you.

when you want something so badly,
that you cant sleep at night.

when you feel so hurtful,
that you wish to let it go,
but you cant.

when the road you are walking, are all dark...

when all these happen,
what are you gonna feel, do?

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You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

10:27 PM

Blurred

imagine your front is blurred,

imagine your sight is a blurred image.

imagine your road are all blurred,

that you cant even see clearly,

that you tried wiping off, shining it to make it not blur,

that you wish there is a shine of light guiding you.

have you ever walk with hopes,

and that it all turned into a blurred situation, image?

and that you have no idea why?

have you ever wish you know everything.

why it happened?

why it occurred?

why is it like this?

but its all blurred, left hidden?

sometimes, the image is blurred,

the smile you had in the picture may be fake,

may be blurred,

that you cant figure out whether its real or fake.

everything is b l u r r e d.

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You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

10:30 PM

back from chalet on wednesday.

chalet was quite fine.

didnt get to sleep for 2 nights.

only barely a few hours of sleep.

day two was quite fun with those activities planned, telematch and water bombs,

followed by bbq.

ate a lot of hot dogsss.

but was hungry after sometime. :X

wanted to see the sunrise, but the weather was too cold,

hence, headed back to the chalet.

and third day came like an airplane flying,

there we go, headed home.

3 days passed superbly fast.

just a blink, its gone.

today marks the last cip we would be doing for this year.

those cip drove our sleep madly.

waking up at 4.30am to go for cip is mad.

walked 10km today.

it was quite okay. better than those walking 50km/100km.

fun experience too.

christmas is around the corner,

looking forward to it?

maybe? :)

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You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

10:16 PM

sometimes, leaving silently may be a better choice?

sometimes, keeping everything in your heart,

not saying it out, may be a better choice?

sometimes, acting as if you know nothing,

may be a better choice?

sometimes, acting numb may be a better choice?

sometimes, holding back your tears may be a better choice?

sometimes, faking a smile may be a better choice?

because, you wish the person have the happiness.

because, you wish nothing change.

because you are afraid that things may change,

and yes, sometimes it does.

because, what you did is to earn the smile.

because, its hard to open the mouth to say.

because, you are afraid of saying it out.

because, you dont wish to hurt other people,

but who knows,

you are actually hurting you, yourself, and only you.

crying, tearing silently, where nobody knows.

its hard not to look back,

look back at the footsteps you had left,

look back at the fun moments you had,

look back at the memories you had created.

but all these are a mark now.

happiness; is it that important?

maybe it is.

sometimes, leaving, letting it go,

may be a better choice...

for the happiness it is.

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You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

12:28 PM

saw a phrase in a magazine.

it reads:

"I've often been the one who took care of the other person.

But now I've learnt to take charge! I want to be appreciated too. "

have you often take care of a person?

have you often think of others before yourself?

have you often put others' needs before yours?

have you often help others even those things are those you never did before?

have you often help others just to earn the smile of theirs?

one sometimes tends to act strong,

but inside it, he/she is weak.

one sometimes tends to act strong in front of others,

one sometimes may be the happy, cheerful, crazy person in front of everyone,

but, look into her/his eyes,

you will see tears.

you will see the sadness, troubles, worries piling up inside the heart,

all left unsaid.

you may ask, why not say it all out?

one possible reason/answer;

he/she dont wish their friends to be sad,

he/she thinks that no one will listen.

who dont wish to be appreciated?

but sometimes, if you dont say,

the person wont know.

wont know whether is she/he appreciated,

whether is she/he important.

maybe those are my feelings. o.o

somtimes, somethings are always left unsaid.

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You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

11:02 PM