this is real, this is me.

JC started school and i went from tuesday onwards.
so had been busy these few days.
hence, no updates till now. haha.
hmm, been rather slacking this week as in between the lectures, there were breaks.
these few days, i also had been following hui teng. haha.
cant blame me for kept following. its coz i dont know anyone in the school.
this was just my ... fourth day in the school?
still not familiarise with the school place, where are the lectures hall etc.
tutorials: its a little more difficult than JJ. trying to conquer it. haha. asking the little genius.
lectures: still able to cope. except for GP. can easily doze off for me. :) coz its so boring.
maybe i shall start to like this school and get down in the new environment.
JJ is good coz i have been there for close to 2 months or so.
i guessed PJ is also good. i will slowly like it. trust me. haha.
................................................
today cross country...
it was so super tiring.
i tried to run... but.. hmm, i still stopped.
partly was due to that my leg really have no strength. it feel so... soft.
hui teng told me to run, i tried. but its really..haha.
well, its over. no more running of 3.2km. :)

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You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

11:10 PM

just when i wanted to give up the hope completely...
the phone rang...
but sadly, its not JJ.
its PJC.
alright, i know i should be contented to have at least a chance to get into pj,
which i wanted to.
i wanted either jj or pj.
however, i cant choose econs. the person said you can only choose hist, geog or GSC.
i guess econs do not have anymore classes.
therefore, i chose hist.
have to memorise again. sian.
tml i will then have to report to school by 7:40am.
get my OG and time table from GO.
happy, but sad.
joanne get in PJ. i need you badly now. haha
coz i am alone in hist.
boredom is not my life now. yeah.
haha.
now, i dare to say, one who has hope has everything.
truely it is. :p

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You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

1:53 PM

4 days passed, however, there are no calls from them.
i told myself, dont put hope on it anymore.
its useless thinking, hoping, wishing so much.
but... despite it, every morning, when i woke up,
i will always feel..
feeling weird not going school but still lying on the bed...
thinking will they call me?
maybe i should really give up hope now.
its hopeless, just plainly empty hopes.
wishing on an empty wish.

what have i been doing lately when i am having 'holidays'...
two words - pig life.
what i do are use com, play com games, blog-hopping, friendstering, eat, sleep, watch tv...
getting sick and tired of these daily routines...
boredom, its really boring everyday.

hais, been moodless nowadays due to not able to enter jj..
although smiles are on my face,
but sometimes... sometimes its not really true.

..................................
saying sorry may not make somethings all right,
or it may not cure the things you did wrongly..
however, sorry is a kind of courtesy...
which when you said,
although it does not cure, remend the things you had done wrong..
but, you said it, as a form of courtesy.
so, sorry is really an important word. :)

boredom is my life now... sadly to say.
who can entertain me? haha.

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7:31 PM

sad sad sad...
that is my feelings now.
yes, its sad.
why?
coz i did not make it to jj nor pj.
not i cant get into any jcs, is i dont like it.
my bro told me the culture is not good.
now, i feel rather weird not going to school tomorrow.
i went to appeal to jj today. hopefully, hopefully, i can get in.
i really please jj now. :(
but i know the limits.
ok, i got posted to sp BIT course.
i heard not much people go sp.
well, heard many people did not get into their desired choices too.
26th of feb, i will know whether i get into jj.
so till then, i am free.
but now, i really feel like waking up early and go to school tomorrow.
well, maybe i have to learn to let go easily.
dont try cheering me up, coz i think it wont work.
just give me some time. :)

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11:01 PM

Misses~~

today will be the last day 08S20 get together as a class.

went for class outing today.

dine at fish and co situated at imm.

the bill was 219++ dollars. o.O

get a shock of it. haha.

had many fun there. enjoyable.

we took a lot of pictures today too.

memories. yeah? haha.

i only have the pictures i have obtained.

let us see the photos.

warning: violence involved. HAHA

yes that's jin kee and I.

want to take photo with me?

i told you no. you insisted and there goes... *slap* *ouch* haha.

i told you not! but you still insisted.

so, no more chances... and there goes the PUNCH

that is really painful i think.

well, but my heart is soft..

so... i took a picture with you. but HAHA. not that easy.

HAHA. wasted your pose.

but i am still nice...
so i finally....

... took a nice picture with you. haha

hais, will miss you and your singing and your hittings. haha.

hope to see you soon!

lets us welcome the little genius. HAHA

08S20

you flirty max. haha. surrounded with all the girls in 08S20.

melissa, enhui, and I.

08S2o with miss jean (our GP teacher)...

will try to upload the rest of the photos we took asap.

meantime, hais, feelings hard to elaborate.

scared, worried for tomorrow.

but i know it seems useless.

its all decided. just follow fate.

well...

good luck everyone. and i will miss 08S20.

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11:27 PM

countdown status:

3 days left to our next lap.

poly or jc?

tues will be the answer to your question. :)

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You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

12:12 PM

i changed my blog songs today in the morning.
haha. i wanted these songs for a long time.
this jin kee, yesterday tried to send me, but,
sad to say, i cant listen to it.
now all the songs are in my blog. yeah.
haha. enjoy.
i know its rather old, but well, i like to the songs quite much.

p/s. going to play go-go gourmet.
haha.

o ya.
happy birthday lee hui min.
haha. enjoy your noodles ya.
:D

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You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

12:04 PM

its rather sad to say we left about a few days or so towards the posting results are out.
for this time, just for this time, i really wish this week or
the next coming week (mon, tues or even wed?) wont end so fast.
the class is splitting up.
yes it indeed is.
just a few more days, all or almost all of my classmates are leaving...
to their desired jcs.
well, just a few weeks of friendship brought a lot of bonding.
i wish, i really wish i can stay in jj.
yeah, firstly, i said i dont like it.
but now, my classmates.. that's what i must say,
make me change the views about jj.
friends are really that important. (to me.)

tues, there will be a class gathering.
where is the place we are going to eat?
we came up with quite a number of choices today before leaving school.
jin kee will do the rest. HAHA.
must really enjoy the day.

...............................................
this weekends are rather busy.
tml, dinner at my house.
inviting all my father's side people.
sunday, going to my mother's side there to have lunch.
....................
random:
sometimes i wonder...
wonder what?
wonder why...
why what?
something not for you to know. =p

i really wonder why...

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You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

11:14 PM

Happy Valentine's Day!

opps, the lollipop is missing. haha.

arh... there, the lollipop is there.

haha. these are all the presents i got today from my classmates.
i am so touched.
and as you can see from the picture i took above,
there was a mail.
yes. someone mailed me.
i was extremely touched.
whatever i could do now,
is just to say THANK YOU everyone who had given me the presents.
roses are red,
so are they pink.
haha.

lastly, happy valentine's day everyone.
hope you all had enjoyed the day.

thank you very much. (you know who you are)

i wonder why...
i really wonder why.

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You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

10:18 PM

long weekends are over.
now school starts again.
tiring.
after such a long weekend, i dont feel like going to school.
so sian.
today go school, its like...
oh boy, so boring.
lectures, tutorials, lectures, tutorials.
yeah, poly is better. more freedom. maybe?
thats what many people would think or feel..
but.. my aim is to go uni (hopefully i can), so ya. going poly, you would have to struggle for uni.
in poly, there aint much vacancies for you to get into uni that easily.
sometimes, i really dont know whether can i deal with the stress in jc life..
and i cant believe that i am choosing jc and doing gp.
and even chi.
now i find chi lessons in jc is boring.
posting will be out soon.
where will i go?
haha. lets not think about it now.
..............................................................................................................................................................................
haha. this veron damn funny.
buy markers which cost 34 buks in total?
in the end never use.
but actually i think you are creative enough le la.
if it was me, i guess i will screw up more than you in the test.
19th of feb, tell me your postings. haha.
hope they really will let you in.
creative media design.... haha. :)

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5:26 PM

happy chinese new year everyone...

enjoy yourself and collect as many ang baos as possible.

HAHA.

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You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

6:29 PM

another week starts again..
but this time, sch is short for this week.
coz... cny is coming.
i cant believe it that it is so fast.
everyone is like busy doing spring cleaning, so am i.
haha. but i finished yesterday. yay!

i pon chi today.
yeah, its the first time.
coz chi is so boring.
ok i shall not use the word so.
its still ok la. the stories.. all very meaningful.

hais, sian la.
tml after sch still have to stay for chem practical.
sian sian sian.
haha.

today maths test,
i screwed up. yeah, indeed.
well.

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5:31 PM

Random

my journey continues without you,
but how i really wish...
every journey i go,
you are taking with me.

the road, the path is all empty.
where are you?
i am searching.
are you gone?
i wonder.

what can i do? i asked.
nothing but just hope, wish, dream.
when i have troubles,
will you be sharing the pain with me?
again, i wonder.

well, maybe that's really life.
life still have to go on, move on.
gear it. accelerate it.
but somehow, it seems to stop.
it does not want to move on.
it seems so lifeless and empty.
why? again, i am wondering why too.

without you, there is nothing.
its all empty.
just like the road.
its empty.

where are you?
i am wondering, searching, thinking, waiting.

currently revising maths,
doing supplementary maths.
4th of feb, maths test.
its a doom.

going out soon.
buy cny clothes.
yeah last min shopping.
well, thats me?
maybe. o.o

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You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

12:15 PM

friends,
you are not a pencil nor a pen.
you are a permanent pen.
you contain the permanent ink,
which cant be erased.

and therefore,
you are left intact in my mind.
the memories we had...
the path we took together...
the times we had.
only one word to say,
F-U-N.
haha. :)

i dont miss you, thats fake.
i miss you, thats exaggerating. (or not? i dont know)
haha.

well, whatever it is.
let nature take the course.
friends are like treasure,
hard to find,
difficult to forget..

i dont like to attend hist lesson...
i dont know what is the teacher talking about.
haha. nvm.
thinking to change to econs.
should i? haha i dont know.
later then think.

i made it possible,
but do you want to make it possibe?
i am wondering.

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You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

10:49 PM