this is real, this is me.

Behind the scars

if life, can be like the picture above, relax and no worries,

how many people in the world will be happy with their lives?

i think there will be lots.

who likes to have worries, troubles etc?

none. i think.

many worries, troubles are left unsaid.

partly is due to who can one say their troubles to?

to a friend whom you regard as good friend?

yes, they lend a listening ear to you,

but do they solve your problems?

no.

problems are created by ourselves,

and requires you to solve yourself.

___________________________________________-

exams are sort of over.

promote or what?

i am not sure.

and dont wish to think of it.

the more i think, my heart beats faster every moment. :X

somethings i just dont wish to say,

but keeping inside one's heart is equally painful and terrible.

many many many problems wish to say,

but saying = no use. :(

if given a chance, what will you do?

for me, i wish to turn back time.

have no idea either. o.o

penny of thoughts which is beyond the scars, left unsaid.

saw a 'phrase' from a picture found in the net.

quite meaningful i guess?

' old friends pass away, new friends appear,

it is just like the days,

an old day passes, a new day arrives.

The important thing is to make it meaningful.

A meaningful friend - or a meaningful day.

Or even a meaningful life! '

i dont know what to do, seriously. hais.

maybe time, will tell me. :(

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11:17 PM

been very very busy for the past whole week and including this week.
just finally have the time to update my blog.
its hard to say every happenings from last week.
so i am just going to summarise it. :)

hmm, last week.
on friday, there was a national day celebration.
ended school quite early.
had gallary walk, song session.
was not quite high at first. but.... haha.
after that, class went for class outing.
they watched dark knight, while i went to orchard. :X
after that, around 4 plus, went to meet them and head over to beauty world to play pool.
played for 2 plus hours. then went to bukit timah food market centre to have dinner.
thennnnn, home sweet home. haha.

saturday, went for charlie chan tution.
then, went to my mother's side grandmother house for some gathering.
to admit, it was rather bored there. haha.
just had dinner and did nothing there.
basically its just stoning there, watched tv, listen to them talking.

sunday,
as usual, went to je early in the morning to study with amantha. (my study buddy)
hahaha. erm, then had lunch at kobayashi,
after lunch, bussed down to kap for studying again. ;)
our sunday routine. haha.
but, it was not that bad after all.
quite productive i must say.
and she really made a good study buddy. ;D

this whole week, was like busy preparing for the tests.
chem test, maths test, chi mock test.
ALL in one week.
but, its all over now. HAHA.
prepared a lot for chem.
buttttttt, due to _________________, my mcq answers mostly are wrong. boo! :(
nvm, shall not do it next time. haha.
maths test was quite alright.
have to thanks amantha. hahaha.
practiced quite a lot before the test.

tml is friday, the next day is sat, and the following of next day is sunday.
one week pass so fast.
before you know it, its already gone.
and counting down the weeks, the days are getting nearer to promos.
and i have not done any revision or full force mugging. HAHA.
i will, i promise myself i will mug HAHA. ;P
update when i am free again. :)

i felt safe with your presence around. :)

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10:36 PM

Dear Diary...

hmm, lets begin with the whole week's happenings.
monday,
ended school quite late as there is come cip talk thingy at 6.30pm.
went home at around 8 plus as i was stopped by my friend.
nothing really happened on monday,
just the usual lessons.

tuesday,
dismissed quite early that day.
gp remedial was canceled.
but, had some class thingy.
helped them to buy some art crafts thingy for the national day stuff.
stayed back to help a little.
enjoyed it.
after that, went to find lynne for night study.
joked, talked a lot. haha.
had a great time with her. :)

wednesday,
racial harmony day celebration. haha.
booth were set up in the concourse,
but my class did not go and view it.
we sat at the canteen and chatted. HAHA.
was quite a fun one though.
after that, had cca.
a rather short one.

thursday,
had a lot to talked about. as we had a mini class outing after class that day.
after school, went with amantha to find crystal to go back to wsss to get the yearbook.
rushed like mad.
did not take lrt for such a long time.
thanks to crystal heng. HAHA.
after that, must rush to the bustop to take bus to westmall to catch the 4.55pm show.
watched prom night.
nearly cant go in to the cinema. ;X
was a scary show for me.
yeah, i know i dont have the braveness.
well, thats me. ;)
after movie, went for a quick dinner at the food court.
chatted a little and headed back home.

friday,
as usual, went school, (like obviously)
then, charlie chan.
and, home sweet home.

saturday,
went for the pioneer heartbeat cip thingy in the morning at vivo.
did not do much in it. haha.
just kinda slack there?
but was quite glad to see some of my primary school friends there.
after that, went to subway for lunch with susan, caz and julia.
chatted there, as usual. haha.
then hurried back home as 5.45pm had to meet at cck for splat thingy.
the concert was not bad. haha.
did not really regret going. :)
that was the first time the clique 6 went out till so late. HAHA.

today,
woke up early in the morning, just to go lib to study with amantha.
had to admit that it was quite productive.
did quite a lot of stuff.
then, went to kobayashi to have lunch.
after that, took 66 down to kap for study again.
but did not study much there.
haha.
started talking and etc. :P
fun one. haha.

phy spa tml.
hope i dont screw up in it.

waiting....
for you to online. :P

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10:29 PM

no updates for long. haha.
why? due to the midyears.
studied till quite late for the entire week. mostly till midnight. :(
but i guess, its all worth it. :)
all are down, except phy.
phy is the realll killer. wonder will i do well in it on mon.
and yes, mon is the time i can really relax, and 'throw' the studies away from my head for a moment.
i was rather happy that i could show the macluarien series today for maths.
coz i was like practicing a lot ytd for the paper.
at first, i cant show. then i told myself, i MUST show. hahaha.
and yay! i managed to show. although, i dont really know how to do a few q.
chem... haha. hope to at least get a B? or a C.
went out today to boon lay lib to 'study' with susan and amantha.
talked a lot. :X but it was quite fun.
and that tootpid susan gave me a new name. and i warned you, better not say itttttttt.
its so unpleasant and embarrassing to be heard.
susan left earlier and had dinner with amanthaaaa.
hahaha. fun fun fun!
you crawl, ohhhhhhh... you just got stepped. hahaha.
i jumpedddddddddddddd. jumped hopped off. :D ;D
cant wait for mon to reach.

browsing through mp3/mp4.
thinking which to buy.
yeah, i am buying a new one. old one has some problems.
which to buy? what to buy? puzzled.

A lvl MT oral on 4/7.
dead or not dead? HAHA.
hope i will do well and perform well. :)

Lastly, happy 17th birthday SUSAN. :))

i hate lonely nights. just like today. :(
where are youuuuuuu.

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11:34 PM

nothing really happened within these days as it was simply home-ed days.
stayed at home doing what a student should do.
hais, and it's really very boring and dull.
doing sth which you dont really wish to do. :X
okay, on friday midnight... i was thinking ( simply coz i have nth to do)...
that i actually had not much time left for my revision for my midyears as i will be away for 8 days. and these 8 days are so precious to me. yes, once in a lifetime it is. hahaha.
coz i dont wish to fail my midyears. :(
as what my phy teacher said, if you fail your midyears, you have a lower chance in passing your promos. and that is really very sad.
so before i leave for my june holiday vacation, i have to treasure the time and study. boo! :(
okay, that is real not me. coz i dont like to study. (seriously) ><
well, at the same time, i will relax. hahaha.
just like today, went out with crys to study at KAP. (okay, i know it's still not so called relax but at least we chit chatted quite a lot as compared to staying at home to study.) :P
joel joined in later. haha. and he's such a lazy bum. =X
but, he really helped we both a lot in those questions we dont know. smart ass. zzz.
waking up to the next morning really dreads me.
dont wish to think about what to do the next morning and dont even wish to bother the pile of work waiting for me to accomplish.
but, no matter what, I still have to. coz, the reason is very simple. i am still a STUDENT.
but sometimes, being a student is good. with all the friends around you,
giving you the fun and laughers. haha. i think i am the one giving ppl laughers. :D hahaha.
okay, shall not rant further. hahaha.
hope i will do well in my midyears!

study study study :(
and how i wish you are the one.

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11:55 PM

first... chem spa.
hais, as what i had thought, i will definitely screwed up in it.
why? i have no idea too. it's always like this. since sec 4?
my hands were shivering when i am pouring the solution into the measuring cylinder.
and.. spilled some sulphuric acid on the table :X
but, the actual answer for x is 7. however, sadly to say, i got 8. :(
gonna be deducted for accuracy marks.
but but.. i think i should at least be grateful, glad that out of the 4 tries i did, i managed to get the endpoint for just once. i knew that's bad. haha. but at least i got to show the teacher the endpoint colour. :)
i was really scared that i could not get the endpoint before entering the lab.
okay.. it's over. shall not dwell on it anymore!
anyway we wont get to know our results.

today:
after school, went to meet up with huiting and dine with joanne and her.
did not seen her for like quite a long time.
really happy to see her.
all the 'bickering' came back and haha, she 'scolded' me again.
and p/s sorry for dropping your key into the erm.. haha.
brought her into our sch and let her explore around :)

GP mid year exam is coming up real real soon.
next fri is it.
i doubt i will have any confidence in it despite reading all the notes given.
sometimes, the more you study, it's still useless. :X
haha.

holiday is coming real soon too.
one more week!
and holiday!!! hahahah.
but holiday ain't holiday. have to study. sad.

depressed, sad, stressed and..... :(

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10:49 PM

finally... 2.4km run was over! :D
no much runnings anymore as what the teacher said.
next week will be the 5 items test. hope i can do the incline pull up. :X
what i meant is my leg wont slide off. haha.

from next week onwards.. i would be having ccas on wednesday and friday :(
as we would be having trainings from an ntu teacher.
and friday, i have to wait till 4pm for the training to start.
and it will only ends at 6pm. zzz.
shall not rant too much on it. hahaha.
...............................................

SPA exam is around the corner. 14 may.
and on 14 may, i will also be having history essay test. :(
and the problem is i cant even get the history thingy into my head.

i guessed i wont score well in SPA.
everytime i tried doing the report calculations, it's always wrong.
or mistakes in some parts.
hais. hope to really do well in the SPA. :)
and and.. today, during the chem prac, hais.. all because of my mouth...
i went to curse amantha saying she will overshot the thingy..
then in the end, i myself overshot it. :(
should not have curse her. :X
so, i was just lazy to redo the whole solution again, i went to borrow from susan! haha.
but, the titration seems to be wrong somehow or somewhere.
i did not get the end point we should get.
hope on 14th may, i can get the endpoint! hahaha.

lastly, a big big thank you to you for helping me to do the card~
heex. i sure will treat you to the island creamery. :))
choc is just a temporary. HAHA.
see how good am i. :P (hope you see this haha)

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10:04 PM

3 -S- words to say....
Shag, Stress, Sad...

have not been blogging for almost one week.
had been rather busy for this week with those tutorials and PW.
PW is seriously giving me a big headache.
till now, i had redo my PW 3 times.
changed from technology to machinery and now to cars.
i had sent my PI to my teacher. hopefully this time it would be better.
haha. and because of the PW... i had really no time to do my own things...
aside those tutorials.
and the lecturers are teaching so fast. one week and one chap is done.
i am in need of maths, phy and GP tution. haha.
chem is also needed but in the mean time, it is still manageable. ;)
someone asked me how do i find JC life till now...
i dont know what to reply, but just to say still okay.
i actually wanted to say its stressing. it truthfully is. :(
i had even thought of poly during that time.
but i had chosen the JC route. but i guess i wont regret?
as i am still unsure what i want to do in my careers. =)
.......................
yesterday after school, went to plaza with amantha, susan, mingsoon, weihao and hong da.
actually its meant to be studying with amantha and susan, which was amantha's idea. o.o
but the guys joined in and wanted to eat and there we go.. following them. haha.
after they had finished eating, we then went to popular as amantha wanted to buy her 'colouring' materials. hahaha.
and one thing i noticed about her... her world must be colourful and not white and black.
if you get to see her notes somehow or rather... you will see how colourful i meant. :P
then, we went to mac to study a little while the guys went off.
joke around and basically tease amantha with susan hahaha.
sometimes its so fun in teasing and disturbing others. :D
overall, its quite a happy one though. full of laughters.
........................
next tuesday - e learning day.
no school for all PJ students. haha.
but why cant it be monday??
monday i end at 6pm while on tuesday i end school at 1.30pm. T.T

now, have to complete the tutorials again~
try to update when i am free. :P

i want to say everything out in my heart,
but it is useless :((
and i just cant pronounce the 'W' properly.
which leads me in not daring to to say PW out loud.
you know.. and you would always laugh. :X

-random-ner-

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4:10 PM

Its a shag day~~~

today i had pe. and the pe was a killer. some sort to me. :P

we have to run the first two rounds in 2 mins time for each.

and the next two rounds 2.15 mins per round.

i am excused from the last round.

but in total, we ran 5 rounds. but for me... 4 rounds. :D

it was totally shag. legs were tired.

imagine running a round for 2min its like.. sprinting. dashing.

like you gonna die. haha. okay i guess i am exgerrating it. :X

and.. i attended my first cca day today.

but interacting with the kids are so much... hmm. a different experience i should say.

teaching them the small little activities that my group had came up with.

folding a flying heart. o.o

some pictures to show... haha.

otherwise my blog is always gonna be words.

i thought this little water bottle was cute. =)

i got it for free in school today. haha.

finally, bought a new pencil case. haha. actually my buddy lists is not at all full.

it has no limits. almost everyday, we are making friends. :)

just find this interesting.

okay, the image has some prob. i dont know why there are so many white dots over the pencil case. the background is black.

what i have been doing almost everyday when i reached home. :(

and look at that, cold war. history... :(( i cant even understand it.

some i should say. :)

and there... my time table.

and as you can see.. monday is my latest day.

so now, i dont quite like monday. HAHA.

before i end, i want to show a small little video on some creativity of hands.

its really fantastic.

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7:54 PM

back to blogging after a long time.
not quite long though.
okay, shall start from the days i did not blog.
...........................
sunday
went to watch movie with veron and hui teng.
watched 10000 BC. i found the movie quite nice...
we were slightly late. haha. but in the middle of the movie,
there was a family who just got in. they were much later than us huh?
haha.
back home around 9 plus? then get ready to be back to school. :(
.......................
monday
hmm, i shall say monday is such a long day.
so tiring. imagine yourself ending at 6pm.
which is that you start your day early in the morning at 8am.
esp, the last lesson was pe.
but, luckily, we only did measurement on height and weight. no running. :D
and we were dismissed early too. HAHA. but that was only for that day...
..................
tuesday
tuesday was a short day. 1.30pm i was dismissed.
but... i dont know who is the one appoint the phototaking of my class to be at 3pm.
which caused me to come back to school again just for that.
oh well, its over. nvm.
tuesday is the shortest day in my timetable!! haha. i love tuesday~~
..............
wednesday- TODAY
today was quite fine...
we only attended a few lessons.
had pe today, and was required to do some incline pull up and 2.4km run.
something to mention here, the incline pull up was much different from sec times,
no one will be pressing your feet or whatever, and this is so not good...
it makes you rather more difficult to lift your chin and body up as your feet kept sliding off...
and so, i gave up at the 8th times...
my hand wasn't feeling tired at all, its coz of the feet.. kept sliding off.. :P
2.4km run - it was so tiring. have not been running for quite some time.
i forced myself to run.. the first 4 rounds of timing was good, but at the 5th round,
i started walking. haha. my legs were tired. cant keep myself running further. o.o
hence, it delayed my time... nvm. its just a trial.

bought the hist notes today... and it was so thick.
okay, not as thick as the geog notes :/ haha.
i tried reading lecture one notes today... but somehow, some of it cant be understood.
i used memorisation for hist okay. so ya. :))
stress stress stress...
now everytime go home, must study. HAHA.
probably that is normal for all JC student.

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6:54 PM

JC started school and i went from tuesday onwards.
so had been busy these few days.
hence, no updates till now. haha.
hmm, been rather slacking this week as in between the lectures, there were breaks.
these few days, i also had been following hui teng. haha.
cant blame me for kept following. its coz i dont know anyone in the school.
this was just my ... fourth day in the school?
still not familiarise with the school place, where are the lectures hall etc.
tutorials: its a little more difficult than JJ. trying to conquer it. haha. asking the little genius.
lectures: still able to cope. except for GP. can easily doze off for me. :) coz its so boring.
maybe i shall start to like this school and get down in the new environment.
JJ is good coz i have been there for close to 2 months or so.
i guessed PJ is also good. i will slowly like it. trust me. haha.
................................................
today cross country...
it was so super tiring.
i tried to run... but.. hmm, i still stopped.
partly was due to that my leg really have no strength. it feel so... soft.
hui teng told me to run, i tried. but its really..haha.
well, its over. no more running of 3.2km. :)

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You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

11:10 PM

long weekends are over.
now school starts again.
tiring.
after such a long weekend, i dont feel like going to school.
so sian.
today go school, its like...
oh boy, so boring.
lectures, tutorials, lectures, tutorials.
yeah, poly is better. more freedom. maybe?
thats what many people would think or feel..
but.. my aim is to go uni (hopefully i can), so ya. going poly, you would have to struggle for uni.
in poly, there aint much vacancies for you to get into uni that easily.
sometimes, i really dont know whether can i deal with the stress in jc life..
and i cant believe that i am choosing jc and doing gp.
and even chi.
now i find chi lessons in jc is boring.
posting will be out soon.
where will i go?
haha. lets not think about it now.
..............................................................................................................................................................................
haha. this veron damn funny.
buy markers which cost 34 buks in total?
in the end never use.
but actually i think you are creative enough le la.
if it was me, i guess i will screw up more than you in the test.
19th of feb, tell me your postings. haha.
hope they really will let you in.
creative media design.... haha. :)

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5:26 PM

another week starts again..
but this time, sch is short for this week.
coz... cny is coming.
i cant believe it that it is so fast.
everyone is like busy doing spring cleaning, so am i.
haha. but i finished yesterday. yay!

i pon chi today.
yeah, its the first time.
coz chi is so boring.
ok i shall not use the word so.
its still ok la. the stories.. all very meaningful.

hais, sian la.
tml after sch still have to stay for chem practical.
sian sian sian.
haha.

today maths test,
i screwed up. yeah, indeed.
well.

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5:31 PM

my class...(part of it only coz some left or were not there)

see the girl beside my form teacher?
she is damn high and hyper-active.

she can make your day a happy one.

and some people said she looks like a primary school kid. haha.

but she is a little genius. she is smart man!

everything also know.

my class 08S20!

haha.

ok, i have to go sleep now.

tml still have school. awww...

tiring.

cya then.

promise to update soon.

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9:55 PM

today might be the last day i am working at that place~...
that job can be super tiring...
and the pay was like... ok nvm.
today, on the way back...
while i am happily sitting on the bus...
this veron.. out of a sudden, chatted on ghost stories (i dont dare to listen fyi)
make me so scared and afraid.
arghx... but thanks to her too la...
coz she did not say those scary ones in front of me. haha

one more week, i then have to wear back my uniform,
carry my bag and drag myself up every morning to attend the jc trail.
haiz. dont feel like going to that out of a sudden.
i am still in holiday mood alright? haha.
hope it won't be boring :)

if i have a choice,
i would rather turn back time.
just time will do. :]

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8:05 PM