this is real, this is me.

Promise

have you ever made a promise?

alright, that question is simply retard and dumb.

or should i ask in another manner,

have you ever made a promise and broke it?

i am much confident to say yes.

many make promises, but broke it.

why?

you asked, and what you get back are all those usual reasons, craps.

well, sometimes broken promises are unintentional.

but, if you think you cant fulfil this promise,

why promise in the first place?

friends forever; a promise to your friend.

but, anything could happen.

this promise you made, will somehow or rather be broken.

due to what? maybe quarrels? who knows.

why some friends are meant to be close friends?

why some friends quarreled, and never be good friends anymore?

why some friends are only meant to be hi-bye friends?

why some friends, we will never ever talk to?

time is the greatest test for everything.

time allows things to change,

but if you can maintain it,

you realised you had already beaten the time.

found this picture, which is very true. ;)

well, at least i try to keep that little promise.

hmmm, my post is talking about friends every now and then.

reading my friend's blog,

its also talking about friends. hahas.

maybe, friends is very important in our life. :)

that's for now!

only if everyday can be like today... (:

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10:10 PM

i must not, should not, cannot, would not, lie anymore.

i promise

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12:52 PM

how does it feels when you treat your friends very good,

and yet, they treat you like ______.

you-know-what.

how does it feels when your friends said something which hurts you,

but you kept in your heart,

dont wish to say it out, because you think its better not to say?

how does it feels when your friends change?

how does it feels when you know your friends are not appreciative at all?

how does it feels when you know, you are nothing in your friends,

knowing they actually do not need you,

not caring about your presence?

how does it feels when you wish its your close friend who will notice you,

care you,

concern you,

when you need it most,

but its not?

and instead its a normal friend who noticed it?

how does it feels when you realised your friends dont need you?

how does it feels when you wish to say out all the unhappiness, but you tolerated it?

how does it feels when your friends abandon you aside, ignore you?

it ALL sucks a BIG time.

it really sucks.

hais.

whenever you rejected a friend asking for your help,

whom he/she had helped you before,

think how he/she helped you last time.

if he/she can do it. why cant you?

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10:46 PM

you reap what you sow.

interesting and true sentence.

hmmm, got back my promo results yesterday.

its not really good but was satisfied with what i have got.

the most surprising was my history.

initially, before entering the room, or should i say,

after finishing the exam paper,

i told my friends, i am so gonna fail that paper.

and oh my gosh, to my surprise, i passed.

yeah, surprisingly.

i thought i did wrongly for one question and the other question,

i did not really write a lot in it. so ya.

the most wasted part was my chem.

half a mark more to get a B.

look how close is it.

but teachers wont be going through the papers, so no half marks. :(

got a B for phy. haha. first time. thanks to my phy teacher. =D

however, maths was rather quite disappointing.

did many practices for it but in the end only get a grade D.

but well, at least its a pass.

hmm, finally this post is not a philosophical post. haha.

schools ending real soon.

but many activities with my class are coming up i guess?

hope so. haha.

sometimes when you lost something,

you will never ever get back.

so treasure it where you can.

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10:03 PM

Simple things

simple things like this; a touchy message from a friend,

whom you dont expect she will write to you,

can make you shed a tear without realising it.

To zhong jiayan:

Hey dude.You are a crazy but nice friend to get along with.When i am no longer around,don't be afraid of being alone.u can always give me a call and look for me when u encounter times of solitude and loneliness:)I am going to miss the times when u never failed to make fun of me.Don't play too much computer hor.Next year is extremely important for ZHONG JIA YAN!!

thanks so much, though you told me dont thank you.

it really touches me a lot.

i guessed you are the one in the many friends i had who wrote this kind of thing to me.

glad to meet you. :)

because of the smiles...

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7:56 PM

Life as a jigsaw puzzle

have you ever notice that life is actually like a jigsaw puzzle?

no idea of what your finished puzzle will look like,

is just like no idea of what your future will be like.

one piece by one piece..

one step by one step towards your finished puzzle,

towards your future.

if one piece of puzzle is put wrongly, your whole puzzle wont be beautiful.

just same as life; our future.

just one wrong step, will your future still be as beautiful as what you wish?

still as smooth sailing as what you hope?

it may be a yes, it may be a no.

that's life.

if only your life can be as peaceful as the sea tide, calming and nice.

if only your mind is full of dreams to be accomplished,

instead of worries polluting your mind.

if only whatever you dreamed, wished, hoped for, comes true.

if only your life is so perfect, with no mistakes, no scars, no nothing,

if only you could turn back, but you know the road is so straight,

that you cant, even U-turn back.

if only you could turn back time,

go back to the memories you want,

go back to the fun moments you wish,

everything will be so perfect, so sweet.

but, unfortunately, sadly, we cant.

that's why its call life.

life is full of up and downs,

full of excitment, where you have no idea what's going to happen next.

just like jigsaw puzzle.

need a hard time to find the correct puzzle,

put it on,

beautiful piece of puzzle awaits you.

and who knows, how tough is it looking for just one...

just one, it may affects everything...

how long will the smile last?

i wonder...

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10:46 PM

Why do things change?

remember the times when you and your friends were joking happily?

like you just know them?

remember the times when you were once a kid, learning how to walk?

and now that you had grown up to become a teenager?

remember the times when you know a person, but yet, he/she changed?

everything changes.

given time, you can see everything is changing.

just like friends, you know them. you joked, talked everything.

but as time progresses, things changes.

less jokes, less happy times.

you knew them better, and realised things you wished you didnt.

the days are not gonna be the same as the days you once know them.

it had changed.

and how you really wish, nothing changes.

and how you really wish the happy moments were still there.

and how you really really wish it did not change.

sometimes, people won't vent out their unhappiness,

it's because they don't wish to spoil everything.

do you really understand?

i really wished. :(

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4:36 PM

Trust

that's right, trust is the key in everything.

will you lay your trust in someone and let her/him to lead your way without worrying?

trust occurs in many things.

trust is one aspect that one may look for in you.

is trust really that important, many would asked.

as for me, i think it is.

without trust, will you even believe your friend or someone?

yes, they may be someone whom you just known,

but, without giving them your trust, how would you know they cant be trusted?

someone may lied, but that does not mean, whatever is said is untrue.

without trust, would you even have close friend?

to have close friend, you have to first give in your trust.

if you do not even trust a close friend of yours, do you really regard her/him as a close friend?

something to ponder and think about.

it's really hurtful and disappointing when your friend dont trust you,

worse still, when you told them its true,

they then gave you a kinda expression of not really trusting you.

that's really sad.

but well, one is given a choice whether to trust. ;)

quotes that i found on the net, which is quite true.

“The glory of friendship is not the outstretched hand, nor the kindly smile, nor the joy of companionship; it's the spiritual inspiration that comes to one when he discovers that someone else believes in him and is willing to trust him with his friend.”

“It takes a lot of understanding, time, and trust to gain a close friendship with someone. As I approach a time of my life of complete uncertainty, my friends are my most precious asset.”

"The best way to find out if you can trust somebody is to trust them.”

Those were the days...

can the days be ever the same?

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9:44 PM

Random Quiz

just did a personality quiz; which pokemon are you.
and i'm togetic. this explains everything or perhaps a little of me. ;)

hmm, quite true in it.
give it a try. :)

this is the link: http://www.dragonflycave.com/newpay.aspx

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1:11 AM

can you sense how true is people's 'nevermind'?

people usually said nevermind,

but how true is it?

do they really mind it, or do they really dont mind it.

some people say nevermind, just not to stir things up more.

some people dont show true faces, but in their heart they take it seriously.

so who are you? hmm.

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i never had wanted to say my things out,

maybe i dont have the habit.

if faking a smile can make people feel happy,

why not?

thats me.

rather sad huh. but hmm hais.

'kidding', this word is what i always say.

but when am i really kidding? do you know?

no, you dont.

my face dont shows. but if you really understand me, you will know.

sad? no lahs, kidding.

anything to say? sure a not? YA. nothing.

thats me. o.o

a happy person, who shows the smile to everyone everytime,

usually have a lot of worries left unsaid,

and the most sad thing is,

when you said you are sad,

no one believe.

when you are alone, you can even think of silly stuffs, like die.

i know that's crazy. but it just came into my mind.

have you ever wonder, if you are dying,

how many of your friends, true friends who will shed their tear for you truthfully?

just fingers, you can count. :)

friends are easy to find; true friends are hard to find.

when i said believe me, believe me please.

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10:19 PM