this is real, this is me.

look at the word 'believe'.

what does it exactly means?

people tend to say,

when you believe in it, you will sure achieve it.

how true is that?

its always easier said than done.

after countless of failures,

do you still believe in success?

we usually tell ourselves,

just believe in it, and no worries.

but things are not always the way you think, thought, expected.

and if you look in another perspective,

the word 'believe' actually means trust too.

have you ever believe in someone fully?

did you ever stop believing your closest/best friends due to some misunderstandings?

and maybe due to the not believing in your friends,

you may lose a friend.

the word 'believe',

how important is that in our lives?

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10:31 PM

Define the meaning...

define the meaning of relaxed.

define the meaning of free-ed.

define the meaning of fun.

define the meaning of happiness.

define the meaning of everything.

i guessed it's hard to define the meanings now.

day by day, we grew older.

much older perhaps. turning 18 this year aint fun.

maybe it is. people will tend to say, you can go clubbing.

but looking at another point of view,

you are soon going to decide everything on your own.

you can't do childish things as much as you were young back in those days.

as you are growing older,

have you ever been as relax, as free, as joyful, as compared to those days when you were only pri or secondary?

maybe you did. but its not as much as anymore.

your workload gets heavier,

your stress is up to the max.

you have to decide your own future route.

where is the fun?

beats me.

but, with your friends around,

fun is everything. :)

a few more days to school reopen.

i am so so dreading it.

with those review tests welcoming us,

who would want to go back?

but i know, i know.

its a MUST.

that's what we students, have to face it. :)

at least i know i exist...

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10:16 PM

sometimes,

you invested this much,

but you realised,

you dont actually get back the same 'much'.

weird phrasing?

but it's quite true.

think about it,

you treat someone well,

will that someone treat you back equally well?

worth to ponder. :)

sometimes, letting it go before it hurts is a better choice,

but we people, usually let it go when we already get hurt.

why?

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10:54 PM

Dreams, Hopes, Wishes...

have you ever heard of the wishes story?

something like, there is one person who is granted 3 wishes etc?

and in the end, the person turned into _______ due to his greediness?

we dream, we wish, we hope.

we dreamt that our dreams come true.

we wished our wishes come true.

we hoped our hopes come true.

but do all dreams, wishes, hopes come true?

how does it feels when your dreams were shattered?

how does it feels when your wishes dont come true?

how does it feels when your hopes are always meant to be hopeless?

and on the opposite.

how does it feels when your dreams are full of hopes?

how does if feels when your wishes you made all come true?

how does it feels when your hopes are nearing you?

i bet you will be jumping over the moon.

but, certain things are always against you.

and how you wish, your dreams, wishes, hopes are just like a kite,

flying up high,

with those winds blowing it up,

keeping it high up,

and never drops.

tomorrow will be a better day.

everyone said so.

will tomorrow really be a better day?

everyone hopes, wishes.

but sometimes, its always, always the same.

why?

beats me.

sometimes it just hurts...

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9:51 PM

Have you ever...

have you ever have something that you always wished to have,
and losing it just in one day?
have you ever feel so miserable, so sad, so tense,
and that you wish you can say out everything,
but you cant?
have you ever have a best-est/closest friend,
and lose it just because of one small little quarrel?
have you ever wish when you look up to the sky,
there is someone there, telling you what to do?
have you ever wish that your life is planned properly?
full of directions for you,
telling you which directions to take?
have you ever wish your friends will always be with you?
have you ever wish your life is always so peaceful, lively, entertaining, happy?
have you ever wish you could have what you want?
have you ever wish the happy moments you have will stay forever?
have you ever...
there are just too much have you ever.
maybe wishing is too much.
we cant have all the things we want, to suit us, to...
this is just LIFE.
face it, commit to it, work towards it.
people walk in, and walk out of our life.
you may ask why then we still make friends,
and one day, we have to say goodbye.
why?

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12:19 AM

Memories

everyone has memories.
browsing through those old photo albums,

memories flow back.

we walked through this life,

and we stored memories in our mind.

The past is never dead; it is not even past,

because the past is the memories we kept.

why we live?

we may live for memories,

to let us remember what we did, had done.

we may have lost something,

but never for memories.

we may have lost a friend,

but we will never forget the times we spent together.

that is memories.

Memory is a way of holding onto the things you love,

the things you are,

the things you never want to lose.

We do not remember days;

we remember moments.

memories give people mix feelings.

it let people feel sad, happy and whatever you can think of.

memories, is it that important?

my days are boringggg. :(

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11:23 PM

how does it feels when you treat your friends very good,

and yet, they treat you like ______.

you-know-what.

how does it feels when your friends said something which hurts you,

but you kept in your heart,

dont wish to say it out, because you think its better not to say?

how does it feels when your friends change?

how does it feels when you know your friends are not appreciative at all?

how does it feels when you know, you are nothing in your friends,

knowing they actually do not need you,

not caring about your presence?

how does it feels when you wish its your close friend who will notice you,

care you,

concern you,

when you need it most,

but its not?

and instead its a normal friend who noticed it?

how does it feels when you realised your friends dont need you?

how does it feels when you wish to say out all the unhappiness, but you tolerated it?

how does it feels when your friends abandon you aside, ignore you?

it ALL sucks a BIG time.

it really sucks.

hais.

whenever you rejected a friend asking for your help,

whom he/she had helped you before,

think how he/she helped you last time.

if he/she can do it. why cant you?

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10:46 PM

Life as a jigsaw puzzle

have you ever notice that life is actually like a jigsaw puzzle?

no idea of what your finished puzzle will look like,

is just like no idea of what your future will be like.

one piece by one piece..

one step by one step towards your finished puzzle,

towards your future.

if one piece of puzzle is put wrongly, your whole puzzle wont be beautiful.

just same as life; our future.

just one wrong step, will your future still be as beautiful as what you wish?

still as smooth sailing as what you hope?

it may be a yes, it may be a no.

that's life.

if only your life can be as peaceful as the sea tide, calming and nice.

if only your mind is full of dreams to be accomplished,

instead of worries polluting your mind.

if only whatever you dreamed, wished, hoped for, comes true.

if only your life is so perfect, with no mistakes, no scars, no nothing,

if only you could turn back, but you know the road is so straight,

that you cant, even U-turn back.

if only you could turn back time,

go back to the memories you want,

go back to the fun moments you wish,

everything will be so perfect, so sweet.

but, unfortunately, sadly, we cant.

that's why its call life.

life is full of up and downs,

full of excitment, where you have no idea what's going to happen next.

just like jigsaw puzzle.

need a hard time to find the correct puzzle,

put it on,

beautiful piece of puzzle awaits you.

and who knows, how tough is it looking for just one...

just one, it may affects everything...

how long will the smile last?

i wonder...

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You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

10:46 PM

Trust

that's right, trust is the key in everything.

will you lay your trust in someone and let her/him to lead your way without worrying?

trust occurs in many things.

trust is one aspect that one may look for in you.

is trust really that important, many would asked.

as for me, i think it is.

without trust, will you even believe your friend or someone?

yes, they may be someone whom you just known,

but, without giving them your trust, how would you know they cant be trusted?

someone may lied, but that does not mean, whatever is said is untrue.

without trust, would you even have close friend?

to have close friend, you have to first give in your trust.

if you do not even trust a close friend of yours, do you really regard her/him as a close friend?

something to ponder and think about.

it's really hurtful and disappointing when your friend dont trust you,

worse still, when you told them its true,

they then gave you a kinda expression of not really trusting you.

that's really sad.

but well, one is given a choice whether to trust. ;)

quotes that i found on the net, which is quite true.

“The glory of friendship is not the outstretched hand, nor the kindly smile, nor the joy of companionship; it's the spiritual inspiration that comes to one when he discovers that someone else believes in him and is willing to trust him with his friend.”

“It takes a lot of understanding, time, and trust to gain a close friendship with someone. As I approach a time of my life of complete uncertainty, my friends are my most precious asset.”

"The best way to find out if you can trust somebody is to trust them.”

Those were the days...

can the days be ever the same?

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9:44 PM