this is real, this is me.

time; seems to be passing verrryyy slowly.

time; pass superbly fast when you wish it to go slowler.

time; pass superbly slooww when you wish it to go faster.

it always go against to what you want.

time; it wont go fast or slow for you.

time; wont stop for you.

but when you are all alone, bored, staring at the time,

going tick tock tick tock....

it seems so slow.

hais. :(

hurry hurry hurry zoommmm to next week. o.o

a life without friends is just like a life without sun.

booooooo!

randomner is bored ttmmmmMMM.

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You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

4:16 PM

Photos photos PHOTOS.

out with crystal on monday to botanic garden.
it was fun fun FUN. hahaha.
took a lot of pictures in the garden.
she was kind and nice to lend me her camera. :)
thanksssss a lot.
after the botanic garden,
we then headed to plaza singapura for a drink and walked around.
thennn, went to taka to buy her book?
and bussed homeeeee.
thanks for the accompany for the bus ride. =D
would like to head to botanic garden again! :))
below are some of the pictures taken that day.

crystal crystal.. dont emo. haha.

she is trying real hard to bring the flower alive again.

hahaha.

boring days ahead. :(((

saddddddddd.

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You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

10:51 PM

sometimes,

you invested this much,

but you realised,

you dont actually get back the same 'much'.

weird phrasing?

but it's quite true.

think about it,

you treat someone well,

will that someone treat you back equally well?

worth to ponder. :)

sometimes, letting it go before it hurts is a better choice,

but we people, usually let it go when we already get hurt.

why?

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You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

10:54 PM

have you ever felt so bored, that you have no one to look to?

have you ever felt so bored that you looked through your contact list,
calling every single one you could call,
and that when you called,
they told you they were busy,
and that they have no time to 'entertain' you?

have you ever felt so bored that you look at the computer like every single day,
and that you have completely no idea what to do to it?

have you ever felt so bored that you lied on the bed,
thinking how lonely and bored you are?
and that your tears just come out itself?

have you ever felt so bored that you have no one to talk to?

have you ever felt so bored that you switched on your tv,
whereby you have not watch tv for ages,
and that now you were so bored that you watch,
trying to entertain yourself,
and let yourself stop thinking how bored you actually are?

have you ever felt so bored that you purposely wake up late in the morning,
so that you dont have to think what to do,
to let you feel not bored?

have you ever felt so bored that you completely have nothing to do?

have you ever felt so bored for like everyday?
getting sick and tired of your everyday life?

have you ever felt so bored that every night,
you wait for people to online,
so that you can chat with them,
so that you dont feel bored anymore?

have you ever felt so bored that you constantly look at the clock,
wishing it would turn faster,
and turn to the night time?
because that is the time you are going to hit the sack,
and finally rest your mind,
and finally dont give a damn shit whether you are bored?
and that finally you had passed another boring day of yours?

have you ever felt so bored that how you wish you aint bored,
and that you were damn busy?

have you ever felt so bored that you wish there were friends beside you,
filling up your boredom,
but there arent?

hais.

i am breathing with difficulty now. :(

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You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

10:14 PM

i want to take nice pictures,

i want to capture those happiness down,

i want to capture those moments down,

i want to take many many pictures,

people, sceneries, objects and everythinggg.

only if i owe a camera for myself.

1-way, 2-says, 3-words, 4- youuuu.

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You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

10:16 PM

Dreams, Hopes, Wishes...

have you ever heard of the wishes story?

something like, there is one person who is granted 3 wishes etc?

and in the end, the person turned into _______ due to his greediness?

we dream, we wish, we hope.

we dreamt that our dreams come true.

we wished our wishes come true.

we hoped our hopes come true.

but do all dreams, wishes, hopes come true?

how does it feels when your dreams were shattered?

how does it feels when your wishes dont come true?

how does it feels when your hopes are always meant to be hopeless?

and on the opposite.

how does it feels when your dreams are full of hopes?

how does if feels when your wishes you made all come true?

how does it feels when your hopes are nearing you?

i bet you will be jumping over the moon.

but, certain things are always against you.

and how you wish, your dreams, wishes, hopes are just like a kite,

flying up high,

with those winds blowing it up,

keeping it high up,

and never drops.

tomorrow will be a better day.

everyone said so.

will tomorrow really be a better day?

everyone hopes, wishes.

but sometimes, its always, always the same.

why?

beats me.

sometimes it just hurts...

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You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

9:51 PM

Have you ever...

have you ever have something that you always wished to have,
and losing it just in one day?
have you ever feel so miserable, so sad, so tense,
and that you wish you can say out everything,
but you cant?
have you ever have a best-est/closest friend,
and lose it just because of one small little quarrel?
have you ever wish when you look up to the sky,
there is someone there, telling you what to do?
have you ever wish that your life is planned properly?
full of directions for you,
telling you which directions to take?
have you ever wish your friends will always be with you?
have you ever wish your life is always so peaceful, lively, entertaining, happy?
have you ever wish you could have what you want?
have you ever wish the happy moments you have will stay forever?
have you ever...
there are just too much have you ever.
maybe wishing is too much.
we cant have all the things we want, to suit us, to...
this is just LIFE.
face it, commit to it, work towards it.
people walk in, and walk out of our life.
you may ask why then we still make friends,
and one day, we have to say goodbye.
why?

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You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

12:19 AM

My Day...

met up with amantha at around 12pm plus at lot one,

bussed over to my grandmother house for some baking session.

what i can say is fun fun fun. :)

before heading to my grandmother's house,

went to coronation plaza to buy some baking stuffs,

and get my photos printed.

started baking after our lunch.

as you can see from the picture up there,

yes, we baked mostly chocolate chip cookies.

after baking, wanted to cycle around.

butttt, one of my bicycles' tyre was deflated.

so yeah, cant cycle.

sooo, went to the playground and played swings etc.

then, my cousin came and we played together.

around 6 plus, we then busseddddd home.

it was a fun time spent.

maybe i should stop being so philosophical. o.o

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You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

10:58 PM

whyyyyyyyyyyyyy?

i want to ask many many whys.

but who can i ask?

many things left unsaid.

hais.

:((((

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You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

10:43 PM

When...

think about the times,

when there is only one swing,

when there is only you,

when you are feeling so lonely,

when you are feeling bored,

that you never ever had experienced this b o r e d o m before,

and never ever want to.

when you wish there are more than one swing around you,

when you wish you aint feeling bored,

coz you know feeling bored is so not good.

when you wish when you are bored,

there are people out there to entertain you,

but your friends are so so so busy,

and completely have no time to entertain you.

when you wish you aint alone,

coz you hate the lonliness.

when you wish when you are feeling lonely,

your friends around you are by your side.

when you wish while you are having fun,

people are having fun with you too.

BUT,

sometimes, there is only one swing, one you.

walking through that,

its so terrible, so hard.

and that, you have to find your own entertainment,

to let you feel not bored.

entertain?

you ask a friend to entertain you?

you are treating them as a clown?

entertaining might not be the meaning of clown.

chatting is sufficient sometimes,

and this is a form of entertainment.

letting one knows, one is not alone,

at least, someone out there is aware of your boredom, aware of your lonliness.

how good is that?

BUT,

people tend to say, ' learn to be independent'

maybe i should.

but, its so so damn difficult. :(

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You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

12:39 AM

Memories

everyone has memories.
browsing through those old photo albums,

memories flow back.

we walked through this life,

and we stored memories in our mind.

The past is never dead; it is not even past,

because the past is the memories we kept.

why we live?

we may live for memories,

to let us remember what we did, had done.

we may have lost something,

but never for memories.

we may have lost a friend,

but we will never forget the times we spent together.

that is memories.

Memory is a way of holding onto the things you love,

the things you are,

the things you never want to lose.

We do not remember days;

we remember moments.

memories give people mix feelings.

it let people feel sad, happy and whatever you can think of.

memories, is it that important?

my days are boringggg. :(

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You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

11:23 PM